this is real, this is me.

hello people.
its been a long while since my last update.
i've been a rather busy bee for the month of july with camps,
community service projects, workshops, gatherings and outings.
I so wanted to post a super duper long entry of my activities in july and
change my blogskins as well but my schedule now didn't permit me so. =x
I'll post them up as and when im free. =)

So school started two days back and everything's going well so far except
for that little tension in me when projects are coming on their way and the
sight of my friends who have started MUGGING in the lib already when its
only halfway through the first week of school. *faints. But im glad that i got
to know nice friends and seniors in school and crazy as i am, i went out with
one of my senior for a drink at 2am last night. A senior that i can really look
up to if i need help and he's really someone unique.

on a side note, it ain't really good to see this dylan look alike guy in school
when i've have that intention of starting afresh totally or harvesting the
thought of putting him off my mind for the time being. Somehow, strange as
it is, the way he portrays himself and the way he gestures resemble so much
to dylan and at times, i've looked him up as the real dylan. Silly as i may be,
i realised i still cldn't forget him and its kind of weird how im not at all
interested in any of the guys i met in school. Perhaps, afterall, he's the only
person that could capture my heart entirely. So a complicated relationship
we shall remain as..

a timely distraction indeed..

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:17 PM

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I’d rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I’m only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I’m just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I’d like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I’d like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you’ve tried
I’ve watched while love commands you
And I’ve watched love pass you by
At times I think we’re drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

i'm sooo in love with this song! *lovess. :))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

2:00 PM

Sophie kinsella is back with her new book, remember me. A story that narrates
about the twenty-eight-year-old Lexi who woke up in a big surprise to find out
that she has lost a big chunk of her memory, three years to be exact, after
having to survive a car accident. Somehow Lexi went from a twenty-five-year-
old working girl to a corporate big shot with a sleek new loft, a personal assistant,
a carb-free diet, and a set of glamorous new friends. And a gorgeous husband
who also happens to be a multimillionaire. With her mind still stuck three years
in reverse, Lexi greets this brave new world determined to be the person she
well, seems to be. Until an adorably disheveled architect drops the biggest
bombshell of all. Suddenly Lexi is scrambling to catch her balance. Her new life,
it turns out, comes complete with secrets, schemes, and intrigue. A nice story it
is except that the ending was kind of abrupt, but i love it still!. :))

on a side note, i've this sudden urge in me for a chalet with all those bbq session
along with the truth and dare, cards game and pillow fight ever since the day im
back from the bbq last friday. Its so fun to be and i got my pants wet! =x

And so for the past one week, i've been leading a rotting-away-my-life days.
Its kind of a torture, in a mentally sense. I simply can't figure out how certain
people manage to hibernate their days away and i find it really tough waking
up in an aimless thought in mind. It seems alright to spend a week or two in
this manner but having to pass time like this for the next 2 mths is so hard to
be. This is going to be the longest and slackest holiday ever till school starts in
august.

Of all the usual walk home, i had the creepiest encounter last night with a guy
who tailed me half way through along the way in his car and his attempt to stop
me during the turn failed when i snubbed him. He followed still. Right to the
void deck of my block. But i was quick enough to reach my doorstep before he
did so. What totally puzzled me was the reason for the tail behind this rather
decent-looking guy in the mid 20s who's all dressed up in a smart formal business
attire. Who exactly he is and the reason for his tail remains as a mystery...

*p.s good luck for your lasik operation jy.! I look foward to the coming thursday
date with you and the steamboat thereafter with wk and yw. Take care and see
you real soon!! *lovess. =))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:47 AM

Everything came to an end yesterday after 3mths and 16 days of

work at inland revenue authority of singapore (iras). Its kind of

upsetting that we've to leave this place due to the sudden plunge in

the workload intake. Still, i'll never forget the days where we started

off with the mundane training to the dealing of no-filing (no feeling
as pronounced by some of the callers that made us laughed non-stop)

calls and then to the fast track team (suppression = depression when

we first got transferred there).

Not forgetting those lovable colleagues and permanent staffs (except

for team 8. we''ll be back! *evil laughs) who made the workplace a more

enjoyable one as well. Love you guys to the max! =))
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Just a week ago roughly we had this kbox b'day celebration for mr

oh wei wei and a surprise farewell dinner for our all time comical mr
marcus lim. It just dawned upon me how each of us are parting for

the respective journeys that lies ahead then. No doubts that there's

no banquet that doesn't end, but we shall meet up often still alright

people and another overseas trip too!!

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Much as jy loves the meet up with me twice for a particular week

and miss the sight of seeing me almost everyday back in

secondary, i'd say i love and miss it just as much as her. Nothing

beats more than seeing her everyday to shop, gossip and eat. I

love those days back with all our silly actions like the one where

we seated at the bus stop (if you do rem why) after school. Now

that im officially jobless, we shall have lots of time meeting up

each other and steamboat someday together with wk, yw and

ting as well.

.
.

*p.s you were right about the guy whom i thought he's solely on

the pure intention of lending me the book. i could sense that

something is up to his sleeve now. =x
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The thought of planning ahead for my 21st birthday celebration

doesn't seem to cross my mind but just the other day, i attended

mummy's (peishan) one and it was totally so happening and

entertaining. Her friends are so enthusiastic and hyperactive.

Really fun to be with. Probably i ought to draft a plan for my 21st

birthday celebration which is only possible if the time schedule by

then permits so..

Sharon's friend li lin is cute in her own way of expressing

herself and her glutton act story got us really amused for the

whole night. Chee wee is still that usual funny with all his

hilarious gestures which made us laughed non-stop. His

expressions in the 3rd and 4th photos are the most classic

of all the photos we took even after 3 times of attempt in

taking the family pic. No wonder he's the ah gong in the family.

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27th of May 2008 marks the day of our graduation. The day we

are officially graduated from Singapore polytechnic. For the

whole of 3 years in SP, i would say its more of a love-hate feeling

towards the course. Love the fun during the lectures and

experiments but hatred towards the workload and the stress

incurred along the way. Time flies, it seems so that we just had

our very last paper yestersday and somehow, i miss polytechnic

times. Those late night outings, prata night and heading down to

school together. i miss them all...

The porky girls with their porky mum. How can we forget those FYP days

that got us real hectic back then with all the last minute hiccups. We were

so relieved upon the final submission of the report and everything. Kudos

for ourself for all the efforts we've put it and anti-pork we are now. =)

The sweet family i would say without the existence of auntie luan

ting who loves to come in between mr wei wei and me. But we do

have some scandals acts within ourself right miss auntie luan ting.

Oops. Oh yes, the usual line to our very own daughter, time to wash

the toilet.!!!

That's our snow white nutrition teacher with that radiant yet pinkish

complexion who will get you caught in surprise if you get to know her

real age.

My 2 months scandal partner back in melbourneas well as my

sister in the family. I miss all the shopping, cooking and gossiping

with her and how i hit her by accident during my sleep. In

conclusion, i can be violent during my sleep. =p

Not forgetting my own TMNT lab mates who always compete against

mr sammie group to be placed first as the group to finish up their

experiments. And all those imitations of the lecturers that made

the whole experiments an entertaining one. Oh well, i think mr

dapin can take over master place in teaching us all the imitation

acts and we've forgotten to take photo with our own classic master

on our grad day.!

It's weird that i've a mishmash of random and mixed emotions for

the coming admission to smu. That strangely and yet unknown

fear in me that once occurred way back before the start of polytechnic.

Somehow, it just reminds me how i've started in polytechnic alone.

The same old journey back again, making new friends and the need

to accustom to the brand new environment all over again. I hate

changes. So much to the extent that i've always secretly wish for

everything to remain the same but life goes on. And time awaits no

one. Someday, i believe, i'll be able to move on like how the others

did. So right now, chin up and smile to the journey ahead...

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Just as I thought like the others that time would jolly well be the

best medicine to heal up the broken heart, it didn't really seem so.

Those choking feelings that i've tried to withhold within my heart

turn in denial upon the watch of the rhythm of life. The many

familiar scenes in it that bring back all those good bad memories.

For all these while, i thought im strong enough to put the past

away, only to know that beneath all these brave fronts, my heart

still aches silently.

He will be the one that i will remember as

The boy who texted me good night msg occasionally when

we don't even each other well back then in sec 3.

The boy who mailed me a christmas card by making use of

the NKF donation card to get hold of my house address.

The boy who triumphed over me at times in topping the

class for A-maths and i secretly hate you back then.

The boy who dated me nearly a year later with the help

of his friends.

The boy who was late on the very first outing and date.

The boy who i'll met up with after school during the first 3

mths and we wld play all sorts of board games at my hse

void deck along with my fav snack, kinder bueno.

The boy who stood by me with all his wise choice of

encouragement words when i got a D7 for my eng in 'O' level.

The boy who bought me a book of common phrases in

preparation for my retake of the 'O' level english paper.

The boy who came all the way just to meet me after he got his

half-dangling injured ear stitched during a basketball match.

The boy who piggybacked me home still even after all the

struggles i made that nearly got him choked.

The boy whom my mum doted more than this very own

daughter of hers.

The boy who was sweet enough to cook pasta and dessert for me.

The boy who hugged me to sleep and turn in only after i fell asleep.

The boy who sewed a pillow for my birthday.

The boy who bought sunflower instead of rose for me on the

intention of wanting me to be as sunshine as the sunflower.

The boy who is concerned of my health so much that he bought

supplements for me occasionally.

The boy who gave little surprise gift on every date.

The boy who taught me politics stuffs which never fail to doze

me off.

The boy whom i combed almost every shopping malls with.

The boy who rushed to my house and insisted that i pick an

english name for him before he made his way down to legally

add an additional name, dylan, in front of his previous one.

The boy who turned down the idea of migrating to germany

with his family because of me.

The boy who taught me never to tell lies.

The boy who taught me how to be independent.

The boy who threatened to hit the brick on his head when i

refused to tell him the problems i have.

The boy whom im really disappointed with when i got to know

he took up smoking and i told him i'll see him no more till the

day he quit smoking.

The boy who held my hand and promise never to let go but

you slip me through your fingers still.

The boy who still cares for me but i just cldn't figure out why

that sense of reluctance in you.

If you know, i've never regretted meeting you.

Through all the times we were together,

we had shared laughters and tears.

I've realized that i was completely dependent on you,

just like a parasite that's dependent on its host.

So my world collapse when you weren't there.

The pain you left me, remains etched in my heart and

irregardless how deeply i've attempted to bury the pain

or how much time has passed, its still within reach.

Just one touch is enough to bring back the excruciating

pain that never lessen.

It beats me if i'll ever let go of you completely from the

world of mine, but afterall it's been so long now.

Enough is enough.

I know it was wrong of me to draw an innocent him into

my tragic world and getting him entangled once in my life

is the biggest mistake i've ever made. An irreparable

mistake one. But i'm really glad to know him despite the

frequent bickers with him and the negative remarks i've

commented about him. There's a strange affinity between

us and that sense of humor in you made me enjoy every

moment i had with you. Strange as it is, you manage to put

him off my mind at times, and i'd quietly wish for you to be

there sometimes. I've fallen for you but im sorry to let you

down. Forgive me for letting you go as well as my

selfishness and wilfulness...

If a flip of a coin into the pond would bring one back to the past,

i'll do so and change the fate of everything all over again.
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Its amazing at how each specific horoscope speaks a person's

personality and their responses under a certain set of conditions.

So taking over wei wei's job previously, i'll copy a few topics related

more towards the love affair matter of each individual horoscope.

And i would give the following analysis a rating of 8.5/10 for its

accuracy.

12星座对你的暧昧暗示

白羊座 (Aries)，

白羊们经常忍受不了和别人的暧昧关系，喜欢的话会自己去捅破

那层纱，不喜欢的话也会亲自扼杀暧昧的源头。但是，暧昧是门

很讲究的学问，淡了，别人以为你无心或者你高傲；过了，别人又
会觉得你轻浮。所以，白羊们不妨折中选择传纸条，贴小贴士的

方法留下联系方式，或者想说的话，来暗示对方哟。

金牛座 (Taurus)，

金牛们属于比较有耐心的一个星座，对于暧昧到爱情，他们需要

一段时间，甚至是很长的时间来确认心情，所以急急忙忙捅破那

层纱对彼此都不是件好事。不妨请他教你功课，在教与学的的过

程中，不断增进了解，决定要不要把爱情进行到底的权利也会一

直在你手上哟

双子座 (Gemini)，

双子们的人缘是没话说，即使是异性朋友，也把你当个哥们似的，

所以即使有暧昧，也没有发展的余地呀。冒冒失失的话可能将来

连兄弟也做不了，这就是暧昧的究极原因了。所以，双子们不妨

主动打电话聊电话粥，时间长了，即使是再迟钝的人也知道自己

有机会了吧。

巨蟹座 (Cancer)，

巨蟹们的感性成分比较多，爱情会让她们觉得很幸福，相对的，

也有可能伤得他们很深。所以，在从暧昧到爱情的过渡期之间，

会想要试探下对方的心情。不妨在节日主动送礼，比如在情人节

送上巧克力，等白色情人节回礼的时候，看对方有没有进一步的

动作再作决定吧。
.

狮子座 (Leo)，

狮子们的魅力，让周围总是有很多追随者，这些人里也许有你的

命中天子，也有可能成为你命中天子的阻碍哟。他看到你周围
始终有异性同伴的话，一定会望而却步的吧。所以，不妨每次和

他接触的时候都精心打扮，并且尝试用诱惑的香水味包围自己，

会让对方觉得你对他态度很特别哟。

处女座 (Virgo)，

处女座们总是以一种很成功的形象展现在别人面前，女强人的自

尊心使得她们不能，或者不允许自己向喜欢的人示好。别扭的处

女座们不妨尝试以上司的姿态给对方很多很多事情做，让他忙得

没空接触别人，久而久之，聪明人就会懂你了。不过，醋要吃得

恰如其分哟，过分强势是会让人反感的。
.

天秤座 (Libra)，

天秤们在12星座中始终占据着社交皇后的美誉，只要她们乐意，

挥一挥小手，不知道有多少人愿意赴汤蹈火在所不辞，因为所

有人都坚信，自己是有机会的。在这样的情况下，想要授意自己

喜欢的人来追求自己，就得使用这一招：不经意的身体交流，

握手的时候摸一下对方的手心，这样他就心领神会啦。

天蝎座 (Scorpio)，

天蝎们的情感比较细腻，同时又很有想象力，直接的交流会让她

们感到担心，虽然内心很想主动，但是总会被理智的思考说服。

不要抱怨天蝎们的犹豫，她们只是在等待一个机会。不妨透过朋

友，让他知道你的感受，鼓舞她追求你，这个时候一个电灯泡的
作用就不言而喻了，照亮了你们俩的未来哟。

射手座 (Sagittarius)，

射手们是享乐主义的代表，对于一般的朋友，他们总是表现出矜

持和理智；对于处在暧昧状态的朋友，她们的表现就有些“司马

昭之心，路人皆知”的意味了。秉持着射手们及时行乐的观念，

在下雨的时候邀请对方共用一把伞，把自己的东西分给对方一半

都是不错的暗示哟。

摩羯座 (Capricorn)，

摩羯们对自己的想法十分重视，走自己的路，让别人说去吧。

对于异性，她们很少会一见钟情，就算碰到合适的人，也会反
复确认自己的心情再去接纳这份感情，在暧昧边缘徘徊的她们

也毫不含糊，不妨装作是不经意地，让对方听到你喜欢什么，

然后等着他投其所好吧。

水瓶座 (Aquarius)，

双重性格的水瓶们从外表上让人感觉很难接近，反复无常时冷

时热的性格导致某些追随者会选择保持距离，水瓶们不妨制造

一个让彼此近距离接触的机会，比如故意弄坏他的东西，引起

他的注意，等他来索赔或者主动登门道歉，然后很负责地和他

继续接触下去。

双鱼座 (Pisces)，

双鱼们爱幻想的个性，会让天真的一面始终保持在她们的脸上，

对于梦想的追逐，很容易让对方感觉你执著起来会对周围的人

视而不见。不妨在他面前上演缺乏安全感的一幕，主动示弱，
让他知道其实你还是柔弱的，唤起对方的保护欲望，骑士很快

就会来保护你哟！

如何勾引12星座？

03/21~04/19牡羊座 (Aries)
調情關鍵字：強烈的感官刺激
羊兒是感官的俘虜，強烈的視覺衝擊會讓他們欲罷不能。著上

低胸的緊身內衣，突顯玲瓏有致的身材，讓唇也因爲一抹亮色

而飛揚性感；或者鬆開襯衫的上排紐扣，透過若隱若現的胸膛，

張揚自己的雄性魅力，羊兒的視線就會無法移動。此時，你的

一舉一動不僅被他們看在眼裡，而且已經在他們的心湖撩撥起
一圈圈的漣漪。

04/20~05/20金牛座 (Taurus)
調情關鍵字：真誠的照顧
對牛兒來說，一碗溫熱的湯，幾分鐘的貼心按摩，便能勝過紅

酒和音樂無數。牛兒的心湖是一池沒有雜質的水，即使水畔沒

有成蔭的柳樹、沒有醉人的春風都無所謂，水面波紋寥寥、平

穩的呼吸才是他們的追求。不用刻意的燭光晚餐，不用太多引

人遐思的話語，可口的家常飯菜，發自內心的真誠關懷，便是

牛兒最能沈浸的情調。

05/21~06/21雙子座 (Gemini)
調情關鍵字：跳躍的場景與言行
雙子是跳動的精靈，充滿活力，卻也是最能變出百種花樣，希

冀享受到多種歡愉。別固守定律，呆板的去按圖索驥。發動自

己的思維，讓天馬行空的招數俘虜雙子，用起伏跌宕去叩開他

們的心防。比如，今天河邊漫步，下一次舞曲激揚，有酒精、

有電流、有大膽的肢體語言……

06/22~07/22巨蟹座 (Cancer)
調情關鍵字：細節處的呵護
內心柔軟的巨蟹，最渴望有人細心灌溉他心中的那棵小樹苗：

呵護，照顧，一直默默的陪伴，不離不棄。小紙條的提醒、電

話中的關懷，看似輕描淡寫，但旁人的每一次小心思，已經不

留痕跡的深深滲透巨蟹心靈的每一吋。當量的積累趨於飽和，

巨蟹的感動便仿佛潮水一般洶湧，身心都處在無邊的情調中。

07/23~08/22獅子座 (Leo)
調情關鍵字：挑戰獅子的高傲
獅子是高傲不馴的，身邊所及的每一寸土地，獅子都想掌握絕

對的主權。不過，若總是唱獨角戲，獅子也很意興闌珊。拿捏

這種性情，選取他們最得意的方面下手：語言也好，動作也罷，

擺出一幅即將蓋過他的架勢，而且別忘了玩笑一般的挑釁……

獅子有人附和，抛卻了獨孤求敗的落寞，碰撞中，情愫陡生，

熱烈而富有快感。

08/23~09/22處女座 (Virgo)
調情關鍵字：由內及外的放鬆
處女座男女講究完美的享受，從身體到心靈，內外都處於舒服

安寧的狀態，他們的興致才會慢慢的萌生。早早的回家，把房

子裡裡外外的整理一番，窗臺邊、飯桌上擺上綠色的盆景，不

一樣的清新感覺，會讓處女的男女們格外放鬆。若還有力道合

適的按摩，讓他們閉目養神的休息，處女的愜意便從內心散發，

生成一種撩撥人心的情愫，充盈到屋子的每一個角落。

09/23~10/23天秤座 (Libra)
調情關鍵字：文化共鳴+磁性聲線
沒有平庸，隔離低俗，優雅天秤無法抗拒的調情，往往是隨著

交談的深入而蔓延開來的。雖然在極有情調的相處氛圍下，一

處文學或藝術的共鳴點，還只能把秤子帶入想入非非的門檻。

但如果加上對面異性的聲線很有磁性，像磁石一樣讓他迷醉，

可以確定，秤子此時的眼神絕對是最含情的。

10/24~11/22天蠍座 (Scorpio)
調情關鍵字：若即若離的挑逗
一臉燦爛的笑容，是蠍子的所愛；情思的跳動，源自難耐的心

癢感覺。言語間有意無意的暗示好感，卻在蠍子想要探詢究竟

的時候，切換話題；動作裡似有挑逗，卻在蠍子想靠更近的時

候，點到爲止。不明確的語言與行爲，似遠似近，若即若離，

蠍子在琢磨、猜測中，腦中充盈的已經全都是你的影像。

11/23~12/21射手座 (Sagittarius)

調情關鍵字：快樂先行，情調隨後
射手是天生的樂天派，歡快與沒有負擔的相處，他才能忘我投

入其中。例如看一場精彩的喜劇作爲前奏，完場後如果還能與

射手開心討論，並抖出不少精彩橋段，聲色並茂的演繹會令射

手喜出望外。神經得到鬆弛，射手逐漸生出情意，此刻再適時

送上溫暖的擁抱，傾訴對他如潮的情意，射手也會用同樣飽滿

的情緒來回應你。

12/22~01/19魔羯座 (Capricorn)
調情關鍵字：細節關懷
摩羯很實在，刻意地調情反而會讓他覺得對方別有用心。所以

有時候，只要通過一些暖心的小舉動，讓他知道你的眼睛是時

刻停留在自己身上的，便是對摩羯最致命的調情。比如發現摩

羯的鞋帶散了，那就放下身段，蹲下身子認真爲摩羯繫上吧。

雖然繫的只是鞋帶，但那一刻，你已經繫住了他的心。

01/20~02/18水瓶座 (Aquarius)
調情關鍵字：欲擒故縱
瓶子是獨立、堅毅的信徒。要想正面攻陷他，用時下流行的一

句話來說：那是相當地玄。所幸，還有一招叫做欲擒故縱，調

情並不等同永遠的善解人意、單純透明。何不偶爾也做一回

“戲劇達人”？一點點戲劇性和適當的情緒爆發，反而會刺激他

更重視你。所以，千萬別擺出“沒他不能活”的神情出來，你

表現得越不在乎他，他越對你心癢難擋。

02/19~03/20雙魚座 (Pisces)
調情關鍵字：充滿遐想的文字
只要是雙魚，就會有情書情結，哪怕只是三言兩語，雙魚都會

認爲那些字句裡隱含了對方的真情實意。心跳與心動的感覺就

是這樣被文字牽引起來的。從手寫情書，到電子情書，再到手

機短信……雙魚要的就是這種文字裡流淌的綿綿情意，一點一

點等待，一點一點甜蜜起來的積累。

難以忘記情傷的星座

08/23~09/22處女座 (Virgo)
TOP1 處女座
處女座一旦受到愛情的傷害是最難恢復、治癒時間最久的。你

如此謹慎挑選的對象，如此小心翼翼維護的感情，可是最終的

結果卻是以分手告終，怎能甘心？但是為了顧及工作的完美，

卻又無法任自己的情緒盡情釋放發洩，於是傷口在心裡慢慢發

炎，總是隱隱作痛，往往有好長一段時間，會帶著無心的軀殼，

如同行屍走肉般的生活。
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情傷療法：
遠離一切可以勾起回憶的地方或情景，搬家或離開這座城市，
來個眼不見為淨，全新的環境可以讓自己有全新的開始。

09/23~10/23天秤座 (Libra)
TOP2 天秤座
天秤座一投入感情便會有極強烈的愛意，當忠貞不渝的愛情憧

憬變為泡影時，你將無法忘記這慘痛經歷。「一朝被蛇咬，十

年怕草繩」，那道傷痕會影響往後的戀愛態度，不再輕信異性

的承諾，不再輕信愛情的永恆。即便後來接受新的戀情，心底

的陰影也會長年揮之不去，有時候在不經意間觸景生情，在心
底黯然神傷。

情傷療法：
給自己放段長假去遠行，到大自然裡，放鬆放鬆心情，別讓悲

傷壓得自己喘不過氣。

06/22~07/22巨蟹座 (Cancer)
TOP3 巨蟹座
巨蟹座一失戀會頃刻間感覺一無所有。時間、金錢、精力都隨

著愛情的結束而付諸東流，甚至連朋友也因自己之前對友情的

忽略，而冷漠以對。因為不想讓家人擔心，只好一個人背負所

有的痛。你依然笑著，可是心卻牢牢關上了門。為成全家人的

期望，你會接受他人的愛，但卻永遠不會主動付出愛。

情傷療法：
把思念和悲傷盡情爆發、釋放，肆意碰觸那些可勾起回憶、觸

動情緒的物品或情境，終有一天會傷無可傷，淚無可流。倦了、

累了，便也麻木了。

10/24~11/22天蠍座 (Scorpio)
TOP4 天蠍座
天蠍座面對失戀打擊時，不會願意向別人訴苦，卻會把埋藏在

心底深處的創傷報復到自己身上。會用工作，學習來逃避一切，

甚至會用嘲諷冷淡的態度來對待新的愛情。那樣刻骨銘心的傷

痛，極易讓你心理發生扭曲，越陷越深，愈演愈烈，最終走向

無法自拔的地步。

情傷療法：
學著用另一個角度來看待愛情吧。其實所有的關係，只是讓我

們更瞭解自己，並從生命中獲得學習跟成長。痛苦使人成長，

當你真正覺醒愛的真諦以後，就能不再為情所傷。

03/21~04/19牡羊座 (Aries)
TOP5 牡羊座
熱情開朗的牡羊表面上與情傷無緣，但當一片執著信任慘遭對

方背叛後，會長時間陷入悲痛和憤恨之中。你無法接受背叛，

更加無法接受被別人打敗。即使一切不能挽回，也會處處想胜
過競爭者，以此來挑釁對方的選擇有多差勁。這種強烈的求勝

企圖心，只會讓你更加難以走出被擊敗的陰影。

情傷療法：
感情本身出了狀況，第三者只是一塊試金石，你應該慶幸及早

分手，讓你擁有一段珍貴的感情財富，並擁有下一個，尋找更

適合自己伴侶的機會。祝福對方，將目標轉向下一段感情旅程。

04/20~05/20金牛座 (Taurus)

TOP6 金牛座
當戀人離開金牛時，帶走的不僅是你的愛，還有多年的記憶和

未來的計劃。生根在你內心的固執，怎會讓你輕易改變曾經和

對方的習慣，重新擬訂並適應沒有那人存在的人生？可是若不

改變，代價就會是伴著那些記憶和習慣無數次地重複揭開舊傷。

情傷療法：
固執是金牛最大的致命傷。明明不合適，也知道走到盡頭了，

卻無論如何都不肯放手。放下執著的信念，未來的路，其實無

限寬廣。

07/23~08/22獅子座 (Leo)
TOP7 獅子座
獅子座最不能容忍的就是自己被甩，愛情丟掉了，可是面子更

丟不起。你的驕傲不允許自己表現出沒了對方就活不下去的慘

狀，自尊心也在提醒你不要忘記那個甩掉你，踐踏你尊嚴的人，

即便多年之後重遇，你仍會懷恨在心，不會給對方好臉色。

情傷療法：
驕傲的獅子需要瞭解的是，愛情跟對錯無關，跟失敗也無關。

並不是爭到了就是勝利。重點在於，透過愛情，你更了解對

自我的評價是什麼。當你真正愛自己時，情傷根本不算什麼！

12/22~01/19魔羯座 (Capricorn)
TOP8 魔羯座
魔羯座對於破滅的感情存有哀愁是在所難免，但現實的他們
瞭解，即使沒有愛情，還是要繼續生活。所以他們會加倍努

力工作，從工作中平衡感情受到的傷害。他們相信，未來的

生活仍要繼續，成功的喜悅會掩蓋傷痛，唯一能做的，僅僅

是在往後的日子裡，一個人稍稍思念對方。

情傷療法：
工作，工作，還是工作！工作不但是魔羯的成就來源，也是

他們最佳的療傷方式！

02/19~03/20雙魚座 (Pisces)
TOP9 雙魚座
雙魚座戀愛失敗後會有短暫的傷心失意，不斷的自傷、自憐、

自怨，完全沉淪在傷感的深淵中。但只要看到迷人的異性，就

可以忘掉一切，重新又投入新的戀愛中。

情傷療法：
雙魚表面浪漫，但是其實有非常理性的一面。當浪漫愛情的理

想無法從對方得到滿足時，她們會把感情轉向到別的地方。

05/21~06/21雙子座 (Gemini)

TOP10 雙子座
當愛情不再有激情時，雙子會認為分手是無奈卻又是理智的選

擇，雖然會傷感一陣子，可是繁忙的工作、愉快的社交，能很

快驅散他們的煩惱。

情傷療法：
和朋友出遊，參加新的活動，心思多變得雙子，很容易就走出

情傷了。

11/23~12/21射手座 (Sagittarius)
TOP11 射手座
當射手座遭遇愛情的背叛時，憤怒會如火山爆發般激烈。當他

們徹底發洩後，會立刻尋找新的戀情，覺得這樣才對得起自己。

甚至還能反過來祝福曾經的戀人。

情傷療法：
射手會跑去狂買、狂吃、狂喝。她們會約朋友出遊，參加聯誼

等活動。不會讓自己長期間陷溺於情傷。

01/20~02/18水瓶座 (Aquarius)

TOP12 水瓶座
水瓶座遇到情變是最容易走出情傷的人，理智的他們，會認為

失戀不過是人生的一部分。理性客觀的他們，會認為如果自己

站在對方的立場，可能也會這麼做。如果分手的時後沒有彼此

傷害，甚至還能和對方保持朋友關係。

情傷療法：
水瓶座恐怕跟本不瞭解何謂情傷吧！他們對於人類如此執著於

感情，甚至痛苦，覺得其實是沒有必要的。

12星座“壞男人”

白羊座 (Aries)

細數白羊座男人的特點時，你會發現：他們大男人主義，不懂

看人眼色，心思又不夠細膩，還動不動就火山爆發……等等等

等，缺點簡直一籮筐！可事實上呢，他們卻往往最先抱得美人

歸。爲什麽？因爲膽大臉皮厚！而且心理學家說：女人內心深

處都渴望被人珍愛。所以，當他們以帶有力度和強迫色彩的吻

偷襲對方，即使索吻不成，這“壞”男孩之舉也已經成功勾起

女人們綺麗的心思。

金牛座 (Taurus)

往往金牛被冠以老實、堅忍等好德行。但其實，金牛的“壞”

你只是一時看不到，時間會讓你體會到，金牛的狼子野心比所

謂的“壞”更具殺傷力。他們以退爲進，以靜制動，表面上，

文靜且講理，保守而友善，等你卸除戒意，他便開始放肆。典
型的手法就是：要對方迎合他，表面上先會裝出一副依賴且尊

重對方的樣子。譬如金牛座另類狂才李敖先生，儒雅大學者，

鏗鏘大作家，卻別樣風流，一生總得美人芳心。

雙子座 (Gemini)

呵！雙子座男人臭名昭著啊，“花心”都成了他們的注冊商標

了！雖然一竿子打翻一船人有點冤，但他們確實太能招蜂引蝶

了。是的，他們擁有天生的語言才華，有口才又有文才，情書

隨手拈來，即使一文多發；甜言蜜語張口就來，即使說了就忘；

他們又多變，時而熱情，時而冷酷，時而多疑，時而狂暴，完

完全全不按牌理出牌，可謂是高潮叠起，戲劇性十足。也許這
一切會令女人感覺這是場遊戲，但又都無法抗拒地被迷惑。壞
嗎？極壞！但實在可愛。

巨蟹座 (Cancer)

男蟹是這個喧囂世界上的另類，他們是用敏感和複雜交織而成

的。如果這個世界上還有最後一個男人用香水信紙和藍墨水寫

纏綿悱惻的情書，我會相信他是巨蟹座的。這個星座的男人沈

默、被動，甚至還有些神經質的害羞。他們低調地向你暗示著

他對你的愛，文字、影像、音樂是他們表達情感的拿手方式。

或許你會覺得他們婆婆媽媽，一點也不痛快，有時甚至懦弱；
但當你拒絕他時，他那幽怨的眼神會讓你有一種深深的罪惡感，

覺得自己過於無情。這份罪惡感縈繞著你的心，揮之不去，也

許解脫的唯一辦法便是–接受。

獅子座 (Leo)

最典型的莫過於《流星花園》裡的道明寺，那個霸道、匪氣、

驕傲的大少爺了！這個星座的男人絕對的唯我獨尊，哇！自負

得不得了！–自負的男人特別自我，自負的男人老愛支配女人，

自負的男人還自戀。若是他們不小心傷了你，絕不會低眉順眼

的輕易就跟你說對不起，令人又氣又惱。在他們那裡，愛就是
佔有，愛就是獨裁，愛就是服從。可歎的是，女人皆有做小女

人的夢想，於是又著了他們的道。

處女座 (Virgo)

有這麽一個場景：當所有人對著一個絕色美女都表現出驚豔的

神態時，都無不向其大獻殷勤時，有一個人卻坐在角落，一臉

地無動於衷，甚至還會刻薄地對美女說一句：你穿這身衣服不
合適。這個人便十有八九會是處女座男人。真的以爲他視美爲

無物嗎？這裡不追究他究竟是怎麽想，重要的是如果你是那個

美女，你肯定會注意到他，然後懷疑自己的美，繼而有一股想

在他面前證明自己魅力的衝動，如果你真這麽做了，那麽恭喜

你，你中了他的激將法了！

天秤座 (Libra)

很多女人對天秤座男人，都是又愛又恨。因爲他們是理想情人，

卻通常也是大衆情人。這個星座天生怕寂寞，感情豐盈得要滴
水。如果你感受到了他對你的殷勤就以爲他對你有意，那可就

錯了。那些看起來動人至極的大小殷勤，你可以在他對任何女

人的時候看到。玩曖昧關係是他的拿手好戲，負責兩個字他不

太會寫，如果你不知道他們的這種德性而不小心動了感情，那

麽，祝你好運，希望他也真的對你動了感情。

天蠍座 (Scorpio)

在女人這邊，他善於猜測她們的弱點，善於抓住她們的弱點，

然後“攻擊”她們的薄弱處，觸動她們的情思。在情敵這邊，

他會想盡一切辦法來讓他自動放棄，甚至不惜用卑劣的手段。

是否會認爲他們有些不道德？最終的評判權在女人這邊，他人

的議論只是隔靴搔癢。但女人卻都是感情動物，情感很容易使

她們的是非觀産生動搖或偏袒，想想他是因爲愛你才這麽做的，

你的心中除了有些責怪外，會不會還有些震撼有些感動？

射手座 (Sagittarius)

他好像不管說什麽，都會有點像是在調情；他也不怕自己的言

語行爲是否有點過火，因爲他就愛玩火；他常常亂開空頭支票，

知道對女人想要浪漫的心態對症下藥，描畫起美好的未來越不

切實際卻越讓你心動；他還特別“不拘一人”，與每個女人都

能談笑風生；但是你無法控制自己的感情，縱然這一切看起來

是那麽地沒有安全感，只有找個理由來開解自己：“人說戀愛

就像放風箏，如果太計較就有悔恨”。

摩羯座 (Capricorn)

非常現實的摩羯座男人，會經常展現出令人毛骨悚然的成熟度。

他們喜怒不形於色，常常面無表情，一臉深沈。陰鬱、冷峻、

太過理智、功利主義，這些沒有感情的字眼，你信不信，在某

些女人眼裡，皆能轉變成一個很受歡迎的字眼：酷。酷男人就

如惡魔撒旦，聰明得邪惡，精明得無情，但現實生活中，天使

愛的卻往往就是這個惡魔……

水瓶座 (Aquarius)

我想是由於人類天生就有一種”賤”性，所以才讓水瓶座男人

大行其道。這個星座的男人看起來有些神秘兮兮，他們做事奇

特，一貫地我行我素；冷落了你不會有什麽愧疚感，失了你的

約也不會爲自己的行爲多做解釋；他們始終笑給你看，讓你覺
得若生他氣會顯得自己有些小氣。他越是一副什麽都無所謂的

態度，你越是想讓他爲自己而失控。也許最初只是想征服他，

但往往到最後就真的愛上了水瓶座的他。

雙魚座 (Pisces)

雙子座以花心出名，而雙魚座以多情聞名。多情是一種本性，
雙魚座的男人痛，可忍；寂寞，不可忍。他們放縱自己的心意，

嚴重具有愛美之心，且善於挖掘每個女孩的可愛之處，毫不吝

嗇溢美之辭，讓女人難以拒絕。賈寶玉可謂是這個星座男人的

代表人物，他至情至性，大觀園裡的姑娘無不喜歡他，可黛玉

臨死前的一句“寶玉，你好……”後面尚未說出來的一個詞，

具體是什麽不得而知，但那絕對是寶玉的“壞”。

12星座男心中最理想的结婚对象

天秤座(Libra)：拥有共同兴趣及价值观，有高品味的妻子
将妻子当做人生伙伴的天秤座男性，视价值观及相同兴趣为重

要条件。若再具备都会品味及理性的女性，更加理想。天秤座

希望得到一位受人尊敬的妻子。家教好，品味出众，丰富的谈

话内容，公平理性，伙伴的资格。

天蝎座(Scorpio)：具备成熟的坚强耐性，及婀娜多姿的妻子
重视内在胜于外在的天蝎座男性，将温柔且内心坚强的女性，

视为结婚的对象。在婚姻生活中，性占有相当高比率，因此床

上功夫也成为重要条件。有气魄，温柔但坚强，对丈夫忠心，

婀娜多姿，责任感以及床上功夫。

射手座(Sagittarius)：有教养，话题丰富，二人世界不会生厌的妻子
梦想筑出一个开朗快乐家庭的射手座男性，妻子个性必须开朗，

并且还须有丰富的话题，加上二人世界不会令人烦腻。活泼开

朗，上进心，乐天派，健康率直，大方不拘泥，丰富的话题。

魔竭座(Capricorn)：能保护家庭，完全献身于丈夫，并且性感的妻子
野心家的魔竭座男性，要求能保护家庭。让自己安心在外打拼

的妻子。敏捷的家事身手，精算的家计，还带有女人味浓厚的

性感为最最理想。女人味，爽朗，浪漫，信任丈夫，家事能力，

有实在的金钱观念，适度的性感。

水瓶座(Aquarius)：有个性，具备知性魅力，爽朗型的妻子
水瓶座认为妻子是人生的伴侣，要求的是一位独立，有个性，

应付能力强的女性为妻子，即使是缺乏家事能力，只要具有知

性魅力就没问题。知性，独立心，广阔的视野，对丈夫的朋友
亲切，共同的价值观，有个性。

双鱼座 (Pisces)：能建立温馨家庭，善良可爱的妻子

对神经质的双鱼座来讲，家庭等于是他的绿洲。所以他希望拥

有一位用美味家常菜迎接他，既善良又楚楚可怜的妻子，要有

治愈他疲惫身心的包容力。替人着想的心，包容力，同情心，

可爱模样，丰富的爱情表现能力，适度的依赖心，做菜能力，

喜爱孩子。

牡羊座 (Aries):不仅开朗积极，并能处处为丈夫设想的妻子
大男人主义型的牡羊座，喜欢能顺从自己的女性。而且不只顺

从，还必须附带开朗，机智，能建立快乐家庭的女性。开朗，

积极，能顺从丈夫，诚实，细心，幽默感，有女人味，喜好运动。

金牛座 (Taurus):对家事得心应手，温柔、大方的妻子
他喜欢温馨和谐的家庭，所以十分重视家庭能力。要求妻子能

和左邻右里，双亲都亲密来往。加上爱吃醋，所以没有红杏出

墙之忧的贞节性格，是选妻的首要条件。贞节贤淑，料理的手

腕，家计的安排，协调性，有常识，大方稳重，喜欢小孩。

双子座 (Gemini)：理性的，在一起能感受快乐的乐天派妻子
即使已经结婚，却仍不愿被束缚的双子座男性，喜欢冷静不吃

醋且有独立精神的女性。再加上在一起时能愉快聊天，彼此都

很理性的话更无可挑剔，家事能力是其次。理性，交谈愉快，

共同的兴趣，社交能力，不束缚丈夫，身材苗条。

巨蟹座 (Cancer)：能以温情相待的柔情妻子
巨蟹座所要求的是母亲型的妻子，为他做尽一切身边的事，在

低潮时并能安慰他。当然家事能力必须在一般水准之上。由于

他相当小器，所以希望有会存钱的妻子诚实，喜欢照顾他人，

料理能力，包容力，育儿能力，温柔可爱。

狮子座 (Leo)：能带出门炫耀，魅力十足的妻子
希望妻子能永远保持青春活力，迷人魅力的狮子座男性，艳丽
感十足的女性才是他理想中人。即使是对家事不行，但只要有

适度的教养，就是他所求。艳丽大方，有气质，年轻，社交能

力，会撒娇，适度教养。

处女座 (Virgo)：纤细，为人着想的可爱妻子最讨厌老油条型女性的处

女座男性，希望妻子拥有为人着想的纤细心思。能将家里整理

干净，对他双亲用心，加上对丈夫及孩子的爱。爱干净，楚楚

可怜，纤细心思，金钱管理能力，协调性。

难以走近的五名星座

1、天秤座 (Libra)　　

天秤座算是属于比较爱交朋友的星座，那奇怪怎么会排在第一
位？还是因为风向的天秤座重用“大脑”而轻用“心灵”。他/

她自然可以和你一见如故话语投机甚至成百年之交，但是他/她

也可以和很多人达成“共识”。交往的本能演变成一种人际手

段，那么心灵的真感觉和新鲜的沟通方式，就很少有了。你永

远觉得他/她和你有一个固定的距离，就是走不近。　　

2、双子座 (Gemini)　　

那个天天和你粘在一起处处纠缠着你的双子座？呵呵，正因为

这样，他/她兴趣消失的时候也走的更远。双子座属于害羞的
孩子星座，所以刚开始密切交往的时候你会觉得慢慢在接受他，
保护他，但是却总是难以了解他多变的一面。也拿捏不定他的
心里在想什么。而再深刻的情侣关系，之间再浪漫，总是会发

现这一切都是双双们给你的“小用心”的惊喜，而不出自共同

的情怀。　　

3、处女座 (Virgo)　

很容易联想到的是她的洁癖。没错，生活上她的洁癖显而易见，

但是心理上的洁癖也一样把人“滤”得够呛。倒不是她在苛求

一个和她一样洁癖的人，而是她对细节的要求影响了两人感情
的进展和大方面的步骤。这就让人抓狂了——和处女座在一起，

尽管享受到她对你的百般悉心照顾，还是觉得要放开心畅快地

互相体贴理解，太难太麻烦了。　　

4、水瓶座 (Aquarius)

由于水瓶座是个比较独立的星座，心思也比较奇怪和多样化，

所以要想完全走近他的心灵世界也够辛苦的。就连两个瓶子在

一起都未必能进行亲密沟通（比如肢体眼神和语言）。因为瓶

子不大善于表达感情，对感情的事情也不太重视，你要是强迫

地追问，他还会避开甚至推开你。即使表达爱意，也绝不有一

点肉麻。因此，和瓶子在一起，要多多享受少少追究。　　

5、双鱼座 (Pisces)

和双鱼座难以走近是因为双鱼座无法带你再走得更近了。他们

对自己都难以捉摸，带着你__难保不“误入迷途”。但是双鱼

座绝对是最容易和你敞开心扉的星座了。不过，不容易的是，
敞开以后你看到了什么，看到了以后你又知道了什么？——好
像什么都看到了，却不知道到底知道了些什么呢？他们就连矛

盾的意思都表达得很明显，以至于，还是不知道矛盾问题在哪

里？也许最后发现，他们对谁都是这样的“处处留情”同时

“处处不留意”着。

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:26 PM

1. What was the connection between you and the last person that called you?
erm. she's my sister.

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
yes. i'll switch off my cellphone whenever i turn in.

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
was on my way to work. =x

4. When did you last cry?
this evening on my way back home. =(

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
toast bread!! yummlicious!! =D

6. What do you want in your life right now?
to be happy always. :)

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
i don't have the habit of doing so. =x

8. Whats the favourite thing to have on your bed?
bolster and my bear!

9. What bottoms are you wearing?
peirce sec shorts. (its the most comfortable short i've ever wear!)

10. Whats the nicest text in your inbox says?
precisely all the text i have in my inbox are precious to me. =)

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
well, whats the point of making it complicated.

12. Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?
nah.

13. What was the last movie you went to see?
made of honour with our beloved iras colleagues. =))

14. What are you proud of?
i couldn't think of any right now. =x

15. What does the oldest txt msg in your inbox says?
a birthday wishing from miss oh yue ying (oyy).

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
yue ai yue nan guo

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
wei wei, ah soo, rapha...

18. What does the last received text msg say?who was it from?
wei wei wants me to thank may back for her for the birthday wishing
whereby i've helped may to send because her hp is not working.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
ard 1am or so.

20. Are you currently happy?
still alright but i want to be happier.

21. Who gives you the best advice?
it depends very much on the situation. diff people give diff advice.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
definitely a yes and i'll ask for more whipped cream. =))

23. Who did you talk on the phone with last night?
none i think.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes of course.

25. What/who was the last thing that made you laugh?
i couldn't remember.

26. Do you wear toe socks?
nah.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
yunpeng

28. Have you ever have your heartbroken..
yes and it really hurts. =((

29. What annoys you most in a person?
hypocrite and cockiness

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
yes, who doesn't.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
yes. that explains why im so pale looking. ok. im just kidding. =p

32. What is the colour of your room?
pale pink and white

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
definitely no. but i'll kill the person i hate even if i don't get a single cent.

34. Do you believe in the saying " talk is cheap?
i don't believe in this saying.

35. Who was the last person to lay on your bed?
i've no idea. probably my mum?

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
my sister. it was a good night hug from her.

37. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kiss?
i don't even remember when was my last kiss. =x

38. Do you have a life?
i guess so and i've been comtemplating all these years on what life
is really about.

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt?
oh yes. i've dreamt of dylan and my dad passing away in my dream and
i cried during my sleep and even after im awake.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
because everything is so close and yet so far to me. =x

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
i cldn't remember.

42. Last time you smiled?
just a while ago. :D

43. Have you changed this year?
i guess so...

44. What are you listening to right now?
a song (shen mi jia bing) sent by my friend.

45. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
yes. im doing a multi-msn chit chats while doing this.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or close?
half open if im tired. *yawns

47. Is there a quote you live by?
yes, my all time fav quote. the beauty of life does not depend on how
happy you are. But on how happy others can be because of you.

48. Do you want someone you cant have?
no comments.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yup.

50. Whats the worst idea you have had this week?
i doubt i have for this week.

51. What do you think is the most attractive abt the opposite sex?
their personality, smile, sincerity and sense of humor.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
no comments. =x

53. What song describe your love life?
yue ai yue nan guo and yi ge ren sheng huo

54. Does the person you like know you like them?
i suppose so?

55. Who always makes you laugh?
anyone who is funny.

56. Do you speak any other languages other than english?
chinese and bit of teochew which i'll probably get a D7 for it. hahahs

57. Are you a blonde?
i hope i am.

58. Whats your middle name?
ying.

59. What are you doing tmr?
out with dylan

60. Who is your best friend?
they know who they are. =))

61. Who will you choose to die with?
with my beary beary bear.

62. Where have you been today?
work and no where else.

63. What games do you play often?
sudoku.

64. Who are you missing right now?
you.

65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
if you know me well enough, you'll know my answer.

66. What are you doing right now?
multi-msn chit chats and doing this.

67. Which primary sch are you from?
teck ghee primary school

68. Name three colours that you like.
white, black, blue

69. What emotion do you like to show?
:)

70. What is life to you?
its a question that i've wanted to ask all along.

71. If you have something troubling you, what would you do?
i'll brood over it for a long time till i get an answer.

72. Who did you chat with in msn today?
jocelyn, sook chan, marcus, abu, tug mun, lincoln, kenneth, karthik and may.

73. when is the last time you lost a friend?
i think i've lost a friend (who is more than just a mere friend to me) like
a year back. i didn't lost this person physically though but i guess we
aren't that close anymore. =(

74. Which month are you born in?
october.

75. How are you feeling right now?
tired and sleepy. *yawns yawnsss...

76. What is the time now?
0121

77. Where are you now?
in my room

78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
i've never try before but i'd love to dye my hair in copper red colour.

79. Do you have contact lens?
yes i do.

80. The next place you wanna visit.
There's lots of place i wanna visit next like thailand, taiwan, italy and russia!!

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personal question, then tag people in your list. List them out at the end
of your post. notify them in their tagbox that he/she has been tagged:

1. jieyin
2. huiting
3. and the one who is reading this now.

thats all for the day and more updates soon.. :)
and yes, happy birthday to mr oh wei wei too.!! =))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:57 PM

I could still remember vividly those young days of us seated round that huge
dinning table where we snatched food with each other, played payroll game,
poker cards along with the casual chit-chat thereafter and rooted in front of
the tv for the don't worry be happy show every weekend with the cousins.
Those were the days that have long become a past. Its irony how we have
actually turn into the most familiar strangers as we grow. I'd envy very much
some of my friends who are still able to maintain on good terms with their
dearest cousins. I simply don't understand why we are always swirled into the
domestic affair as well together with the adults. It always hurts whenever they
quarrel and how much hurtful words and the ugly sides of them are exposed in
the midst of their fight. All that it takes to trigger the sparks in them for an
argument never fail to be the same matter, money. Does money really value as
much as the kinship that took years to build up. You frown your eyebrow when
you are in a depserate state for money and so are you when you have way too
much money that is enough to live you off for your next younger generation. So is
it really worth the dispute for it? Its obvious the answer to them is no and they
can really be mean to the core. I hate the third uncle in particular. that snobbish
look on your face is just so sickening that i wanted very much to blast your head
off with just a shot if i have a pistol. Just so what if you are the richest among all.
You owe what you have today because of your parents and your ungrateful acts
to your parents totally disgust me. To think that whats on your mind are actually
means and ways to get hold of their possessions. You are always the one who stir
up the row and you caused grandma's death. I'll never ease off that aversion for
you in me and you don't earn any respect from me. Not at all. Money is no doubt
the root of all evil and it harms relationships to the extreme. Really.

i needed you tonight badly
to hold me through this..
_____________________________________________________________________

I totally heart smitten magazine to the max. Every flip through the pages bring
you upon the trendiest and uber stylish fashion along with the styling tips that
inspire readers to imagine each item fitting into their lives. They do highlight the
choicest fashion, beauty and decor items, the latest stores, best emerging
designers and exotic destination shopping spots. The layout design of the
content is the best part of the magazine and it's the reason why i'm completely
in love with it. I'd agree to a large extent with their slogan as well, shopping is life!

Anyhow, i got accepted into ntu and smu, and they're giving me approximately
a month's time to decide if i want to take up the offer, and i've never felt so lost
so torn apart and so indecisive. This is the part where i say i hate to grow up
because decision making is supposed to be an adult's thing, but it really isn't my
forte.

I remember feeling this way back then,
this suffocating hurt in the still night,
but i'd tell myself that i'll try to sleep it all away.
those words that i've wanted to tell you all along,
sorry, i love you.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:57 PM

im beginning to love my work at iras despite the need to tackle some nasty

taxpayer calls at times. there's simply isn't a moment of stressfulness. you

get to do your own things until a call comes in. free snacks and fruits (every

thursday)are also avaliable and you get to joke around with the other

colleagues and supervisors there. disturbing serene is a must routine for me

everyday especially because she's naturally fun to disturb with. but i guess

she's very much scared off by my actions occasionally in particular to that

american black incident which caught her totally in the mode of craziness. its

wholly fun working at iras. :))
.

work for dumex sucks big time seriously. its one of the most yuckiest job i ever

had. i've never had this sense of guilt in me that got me perplex for promoting

the all in one milk powder which is supposingly nutritious to kids (who absolutely

adhore veg and fruits), is in actual fact harmful on the other hand in the long run

due to its high sugar content. besides, their despicable act of claiming deceitful

ingredients composition as reflected in the tin completely put me off.

much at how sickening the job maybe, kids that patronize my booth never fail to

perk up my mood. all it takes is a word of thanks jie jie, can i have another cup jie

jie and bye jie jie from them to brighten up my days. i love the way they wave

heartily and smile shyly at me. kids are simply my loves and i love them to bits!

they are the ONLY reason for the smile in me at work. =)

how sweet is that for a boy to scribble down his name

on this paper cup for me. :))

sometimes, it touches one's heart when someone is concern about you. just the

day before, an auntie who passed by my booth did so when i was slouching and

leaning against the booth. she actually walked up to me and asked if i was cold

and prompt me to wear an additional clothes inside or a cardigan for fear that i

will catch a cold. there was another auntie who appeared stern on the very first

day of my work turned out to be really friendly and how she extended her help

when i needed so. i was relieved that i blurted out a its-good-to-tell-lies-

sometimes reply to her when she posted a real random question. otherwise, god

knows how she will go ahead with her matchmaking plan of me and the young

supervisor there. -_-II i know she didn't mean to be nosy parker but just solely

on a pure intention of trying to recommend me to a nice chap. i appreciated it

though but im not in the least bit of being interested. a smile is no doubt

contagious and how the smile from the staffs and passerbys bring that tad of

delightfulness to me sometimes. =)

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just a real random entry here of how some photos track me back to a string of

the good old days memories dated way back to secondary school time. i miss

my happy peirceans days, miss the mugging for o's, miss the crappy classmates,

miss the heaps of stupid actions we did, the teachers there and loads more. they

are memories that i'll hold on to forever.

its remarkingly strange to only realise now how i actually used to smile way so

much back then. I need to find back those smile in me again.

习惯慢慢失忆

这样就能转移自己

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:37 PM

just a little updates on what i've been up to for the past 2 weeks.
started work at IRAS after 4 days of training that seems pretty much
like an exam module wherein we were required to undergo 2 tests. its
a tad turn off upon hearing the news ever since the liberation from
exams on the 1st of feb. Who loves exam anyway.? Perhaps, i sound
kind of a little over exaggerating because its not that bad afterall given
on the fact that there's a little discussion during the test and we are paid
in the course of training.

took up another job as a promoter for dumex and the pay is absolutley
attractive. but the training along with the aunties and given the lecture
notes in chinese text is simply out of the world. Just imagine yourself
studying a module in chinese. Nevertheless, its a brand new experience.

on a happier note, i met an eye candy during the interview this friday!
He's certainly the type of guy i adore! *heart melts. He even said he was
impressed by my resume and my speech. *blushing. If not for the contract,
i would definitely work in that company and i'll be able to see him everyday.
How i wish so. A pity that he's kind of old already, old enough to be my young
dad. Well, at least he shook my hands twice, smile at me for umpteen
numbers of times, called and texted me before. *grins. =)))

sometimes, online shopping just got me all hooked up and those new arrivals
are just soo irresistable. in conclusion, online shopping is addictive!!

So close,
and still so far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:45 PM

oh my oh my.
i can't believe this.
they actually called me.
can someone tell me im not dreaming.
i manage to get into the next round of interview.
oh my god.
this is sweet.

=)))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:15 PM

Ah long movie was real funny. it got me burst into laughters
for umpteen number of times during the show. it'll give it a
thumbs up for it because its simply hilarious. its been such a
long time ever since i had such a hard laugh.

on another note, the interview today was a real 'gone case' one.
to think that i actually forgot to bring my resume as well as a
passport size photo and how dumb a person like me could go for
the interview without knowing what position i've applied for and
the company name. =s
god gracious me.

despite all that and knowing in mind that chances of getting in are
pretty slim (afterall, who would employ a science dip student for a
business job), i was glad or rather elated. this is simply because i
got to wear formal attire once again and im applying for a business
job. its the unexplainable delight that im pursuing something i like
which i have always long for and so much so, it got all my happy
cells active once again. to add, one of the panel interviewees even
praised for my well done interview. thanks for that. it really got me
on cloud nine. :))

i'll hold on to that believe in me still
that someday,
i'll get a business job and wear my business attire for work.
hanging on.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:30 PM