this is real, this is me.
The Sweet Escape..
this is real, this is me
Tuesday, November 28, 2006


*have been ruminating lots of things lately.

stop this rain for me, won't you

its not the words but the tone,
not the silence but the mood,
not the deed but the intention.
and you start to wonder why
did that same piece of heaven
which once made you immensely happy
is looking so dark and dull now.
then you realise because its starting to rain.

*hate rainy day.
it just ruin my day
hopefully the sun will be out soon
hanging high up in the sky one day
i'll be looking forward to it! =)

it was a nightmare to get back CEP paper
a killer paper indeed
but i was pretty surprised
i passed. =p
and in fact much more than what i expected
though as usual
i made careless mistake again.
yes. again
hmm. =x


*why did i fall into your trap
this is bad
i'm gonna be more cautious
the next time round.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

1:01 AM

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Till the end .. (*will we last till the end?)

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That 's holding me all night
I don 't know how I found you
I 'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold , to keep ,to share
In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide

I 'll always be
with you untill the very end
In this world ,
there is no place I 'd rather be
You are my life , my soul , my girl
And through it all
I know that you 've come to see that
You 're the one till the end
All my friend around me
Say you 'd be gone too soon
Baby , I 'm gonna make them see
We 've found our way back home
In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I 'll always be
with you untill the very end
In this world , there is no place I 'd rather be
You are my life , my soul ,my girl
And through it all
I know that you 've come to see that
You 're the one till the end
We 'll always be till the end

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:36 PM

ARGGHH!!!


reports, assignments and quizzes
are just driving me crazy.

but i'm just gonna hang on
and i need lots of chocolates
to calm myself down.

=(

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:18 AM

Saturday, November 25, 2006


was disenchanted by QAAS quiz.
cld have got FULL marks if i hadn't
make that careless mistake
and the sudden mental block on the 4 factors.
arghh.
saddened.


well, its over.
shldn't be brooding over it anymore.
i gotta move on.
* never let today's disappointments shadow tomorrow's dreams.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

7:04 AM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006
maybe it was a bad idea to weave our lives so closely together
because whatever happens to you affects me in one way or another
and it works just as well in the opposite direction.
look what's happened now, all that friction and tension.
that struggling, suffocating tension.


why did you change your mind? why are you so readily to change for the sake of me?

i'm even more confused than before. your change certainly has an effect on me. =x


*i've finally realised that the distance, was all relative.
and that when we are together, i feel miles away from you,
much more than ever, much more than i thought.
you never know how much i wish you wld be free everyday
so that you can be there by my side all day long like how you used to.
i miss you!



You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:20 AM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006
food expo is gonna end today
and me and wei wei have yet to buy that nougats
arghh!
reason: thanks to our busy schedule.

but it was a fun day last friday to the trip to food expo
despite the fact of being part of the auntie club. =x
tried soo much samples
and got high because of the packet filled with ONE jelly.
muhahahas. :)

took several rides on the skytrain with wei wei and auntie luanting
we were roaming around in the airport
and we spotted something unexpectedly
miss toh actually took a part time job
a job that none of us wld ever guess it right.
the picture below shall revealed the ans of the job miss toh took.




what else can the three aunties do other than smth silly.?
hahas..







mm.
submitted my OITP form today.
i really really wanna go melbourne.
*pray hard that the only a few other students apply.
i know i'm evil.
but i really wish to go.
so forgive my selfishness this time round. =x

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:12 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006
guilty guilty guilty.
fancy me to actually leave my piles of work undone
just to accompany my sis to go shopping.
hmm.
it wasn't a real shopping trip though
but i just had this urge to go shopping
because the clothes were just too tempting.
but
i did manage to resist myself.
saw this dress which is really really nice. =)
and guess what?
it costs $119.00 =(
mmm.
should i buy? *pondering
maybe i will buy it if the dress is still there
when i visit that shop again somewhere.. next week?

alright.
enough of crapping.
i shouldn't be carry away anymore.
*back to my piles of assignments. =x


*anyway. i was pretty too harsh yesterday. shldn't have said all these in a spur of moment!
but i was just trying to get justice for those victims.
hmm. nvm. =x



You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:19 PM

had this sudden urge of shouting out all the feelings i'm feeling right now.

i was utterly disgusted by the acts of my friends.

if only everyone cares about the feelings of others.
if only everyone can think of how the other feels in their shoes.
if only everyone knows whats the apprioprate things to do..
things wouldn't turn out in this way.

if you had care for her feelings you shouldn't do this to her.
afterall, you are the only one she trust.
and thats how you treat her.
shouldn't friends be there by your side when the whole world is against you
and no matter how bad you are.
to guide you back to the right track.
but the way you react utterly disappointed me.
i didn't expect you to do this to her.

and thanks to his indecisive and selfish action
he caused misery to someone
and fancy him to think that he has the right to decide
why can't you be more sensible and react in the right way.


perhaps weiwei was right, never judge a person by its cover.
*how i wish everything can be simple.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:00 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2006
I'm in a mess thinking about all the what ifs and the in betweens, and all the possibilities that exist between the two extremes.





and right now i'm feeling terribly awfully after reading your blog:

In the land of pokemon,there were many pokemons. Mr Mime, the psychic pokemon, went into a classroom to learn some lessons on making food. He saw some of the pple he knew and some others who are new but he recognise those who r new as they are from the other psychic class in the past. Some pokemon he saw were charmander,pikachu,bulbasaur,blastoise but he saw one beautiful pokemon, Nidoqueen. Soon,Mr Mime found out his practical grouping. He was in the same group as pikachu,blastoise and Nidoqueen. "OMG" he tot..As Mr Mime is a clown with psychic powers,his greatest ability is to make pple laugh and smile but that is due to disturbing others. So in one of the practical,he disturbed Nidoqueen until she cried. Mr Mime was very afraid that he may be hated in the new food class. Soon,other pokemons went to scold Mr Mime and he felt like he was the public's enemy for that day. Mr Mime has never made any female pokemons cry before but somehow,he felt he has to apologise to Nidoqueen for wat he has done. Nidoqueen didn't seem to blame him because she was also feeling down and Mr Mime was like the catalyst to make her cry. This incident got Mr Mime's attention. After then,Mr Mime found out that Nidoqueen has a Nidoking. Nothing happened for a period of time. Then the food class decides to organise a BBQ @ Extra Calcium Pond for a bonding session. Not many pokemons in the class went as promised and Mr Mime was quite angry but his anger soon went off. The pokemons then played the game "Truth or Dare". As the game went on,there were many embarassing moments for many pokemons. But they all took it in their stride. Next,the bottle was turned and it turned to Mr Mime!He was shocked as the questions asked before that were all very POWEFUL. It was too POWERFUL for Mr Mime to handle but he still answered. The question was "who u think in our class has the criteria of the female pokemon u're looking for?" Then pikachu shouted, "Nidoqueen lor". When Mr Mime heard that,he felt like he needed the move,dig, so he could hide underground. But after that,everything went on as normal. Probably because of drinking too much, Mr Mime felt like vomitting but he couldn't vomit anything out. The feeling went on for quite a while but it subsided after that. Soon,it was sunrise and all the pokemons went their separate ways home. Many months passed and Mr Mime's liking for Nidoqueen became even stronger..why issit like that?even Mr Mime himself doesn't know why..The pokemon class make fun of Mr Mime with Nidoqueen together sometimes but Mr Mime doesn't mind. What he's worried is Nidoqueen will know about his liking for her and that may spell trouble for Mr Mime. He decided to tell her how he felt about her. At the same time, it could be due to battling too much,Nidoqueen and Nidoking had some problems like not spending enough time with other etc..Bearing too much hope,Mr Mime went to ask Nidoqueen if she would give him a chance to be together but guess wat's the result?Negative.........Mr Mime felt very sad as he tot Nidoqueen also felt the same way for him as he does for her but apparently,it wasn't the case......This has caused Mr Mime to feel somewhat sad..so much so that whenever he's at work and see couples together,he'll sometimes have tears welling up his eyes,thinking that why it couldn't be him and Nidoqueen. But he understands that love cannot be forced and he decides to wait for Nidoqueen. Waiting and waiting,wondering if whatever he does is silly..he made a calendar for Nidoqueen's birthday. Some pokemons said Mr Mime is stupid and silly but he told them that it was the love for Nidoqueen that made him stupid. However,he didn't really know how Nidoqueen felt about Mr Mime giving her the calendar as the present. touched?surprised?happy?he didn't know..he jus had to guess...

what should i do? nobody ever told me how to. =x


You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

6:08 PM

the words
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

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Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.

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