i think i'm a walking contradiction.
so much to say, yet so hard to get started.
all of a sudden it seems like i've lost sight
of the things i once clung on to and believed in,
and you were pretty much one of them i guess.
though i hate to admit it,
its toll on me is just undeniable.
i feel as if i'm just drifting around, going
through the routines and motions everyday
but not actually thinking or feeling at all.
i feel so lost, and i've never really felt this way before.
its different.
so subtle,
yet i can almost feel it screaming into my ears.
at this point of time everything's so flurry and
reality isn't something i would like to look at.
so many issues that need addressing,
but i don't exactly like the idea of facing up to them now.
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*i know it hurts for either one of you/us.
but whatever it may be, i'm gonna stay firm with my decision now.
no more contradiction anymore,
for it will be more miserable if i drag this any longer. =x

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.