holidays are soon gonna be over
and school's reopening next monday.
i'm not complaining though
but there's still loads of undone stuffs,
procrastination and late nights.
this holiday hasn't been treating me well,
but i guessed i asked for it.

hmmm.
recently its been a mishmash of random
and mixed emotions, and i really.. don't know.
its the choking feeling i get everytime i think of it
and that reminds me i'm not okay...

time goes by so slowly for those who wait
no time to hesitate
those who run seem to have all the fun
i'm caught up, i don't know what to do

i'm still delirious and braving through
the rain for the past consecutive days
ain't gonna be good to me. =x
hope i'll recover real soon.
my mind seemed to evoke my childhood memories
at the sight of the primary kids that i saw yesterday.
how innocent and ingenuous those kids are
and thats how we once looked like too.
but everyone seems to change as they grow.
was it the environment that changes them
or was it that they change to suit the environment?
i have no idea.
the world is getting more and more complicated
and you never know whats really behind the smile.
so much so that i hope i can still remain as a kid
who doesn't have to worry or mull over anything.
I tried my best to show you in whatever ways I could, but I just couldn't tell you the things that I've been meaning to say.
I wasn't strong enough and beneath all these brave fronts, its just a really strong and intense urge to want to care.
Its okay though, I know i wouldn't have the chance too. So I hope someone good will come along soon,
someone who'll make you happy, and you'll let her care.
somewhere over the rainbow way up high
there's a land that i heard of once in a lullaby
somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
someday i wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles smelled like lemon drops
way above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me
somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
birds fly over the rainbow
why then, oh why can't i?
somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
birds fly over the rainbow
why then, oh why can't i?
if happy little blue birds fly beyong the rainbow
why, oh why can't i ?

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i have this strong urge of saying that i miss my secondary school life and definitely my friends as well. =)

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if only things remain the same as before. . .

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*everything comes from everything, everything becomes everything, everything ends in everything.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.