the exams are finally over but i'm not at

the least happy at all except relieved.

as usual, my thinking cell are active again.

i'm simply doing nothing except thinking

soreness is what i get just when i thought

i'm slowly finding the meaning of my life all

this while only to know that, well, I'm actually not.

in fact, i'm submerging into a deeper hole

and i've lost the way i am.

who exactly am i?

i don't know.

i'm so completely and hopelessly lost.

i cant see the rainbow ahead of me.

i have lost count of the things that

i wanted to do all along.

i really don't know what i want exactly.

i'm nothing except a failure.

a failure in everything.

so much so that, i wanna let go of eveything

and find back the real me.

its gonna be tough.

but, thats the only thing i'll to do now.

i'd hope you'll be there to guide me, but i doubt so we are drifting apart from each other each day.

and we have totally lost the way we used to be, dont we? maybe, maybe this will be good.

at least you have your friends now and you seem happy. afterall, i've disappointed you all the while.

perhaps, i shldn't hold you back anymore.

the afterthought to what mum told me previously

she was right to a certain point.

but it hurts when someone who is close to you

don't really understand you.

but i guess i was wrong in certain way too.

strangely speaking, i've no idea whats

the reason for the emotional me these few days.

it could be the tv shows and the songs which

set me thinking then.

alright. there's something which i have to do

seriously now is to be happy.

nothing beats better than that and i guess

i shldn't think so much anymore.

too much thinking is bad for health.

i shall let nature take its course..

.

we're not all tempted by the same things.

what one person finds wonderful will be looked

at with distaste by someone else.

.

'I don't know where we are going now'

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

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