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and so, the nancy drew movie is officially screen now.

im so in the urge to watch this movie, but the tight schedule

next week has totally ripped me off from any leisure time.

booooo.. =(

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yesterday was a real lousy day with the ongoing diarrhae started

for the day and followed by the spilt headache. what a bad day!

i wasn't in the mood for anything, not even shopping (sorry wei wei

if i had been a bad shopping companion ytd) or that tad for any

revision. took a saunter instead before i headed back home, wherein

those memories flashed back along the path and its kind of upsetting..

I guess, i just needed an outlet to whine. probably i've suffered way

too much from suppressing emotions. on another note, those songs of

stefanie's new album are kind of speaking of me.

A timely distraction, that's what everything's all about.

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do you experience memory loss or deterioration in your memory ever? well, there's a

few factors that generally instigate such symptom and that includes the following list:
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1. Medications – Examples of medications that can interfere with memory include
over-the-counter and prescription sleeping pills, over-the-counter antihistamines,
anti-anxiety medications, antidepressants, some medications used to treat schizophrenia,

and pain medicines used after surgery.
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2. Alcohol and illicit drug use – Heavy alcohol use can cause deficiencies in vitamin B1
(thiamine), which can harm memory. Both alcohol and illicit drugs can change chemicals

in the brain that affect memory.
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3. Stress – Stress, particularly due to emotional trauma, can cause memory loss.
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4. Depression – Depression, which is common with aging, causes a lack of attention
and focus that can affect memory. Usually treating the depression will improve mood

and the memory problems may then also improve.
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5. Head injury – A blow to the head can cause a loss of consciousness and memory
loss. Memory loss from head trauma typically stays the same or gradually gets better,

but not worse.
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6. Sleep deprivation – Lack of quality sleep or late night sleep be it from stress,
insomnia, or sleep apnea, can affect memory.
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7. Nutritional deficiencies – Deficiencies of vitamins B1 and B12 can affect memory.

Such deficiencies can be treated with a pill or an injection.
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Oops.. i guess i fall under many of these factors. bad bad bad. Its time to do some reflection

on these factors and find a solution to it before my memory gets any worsen down ahead.

Anyhow, sleeping early is also a cure to such symptom aside from just beauty sleep. =)
will things ever be beautiful once again like before?

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Some photos taken this week:

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and so i become zhi xi's second sis with sijia being the eldest and ting the youngest sister

of his. hahahs. ting's granny is simply so cute.. hehehehs. =)

wei wei's birthday celebration together with her 5 other concubines. =x

chanced upon this when i visit the yahoo site webby and this is so incredible. and

truly amazing!! who would ever imagine a phone salesman to sing opera like this.

*claps..
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those late night tales and overlapping memories..

mum just broke a bad news to us last night.

im still in the denial state.

someone please tell me im dreaming.

this is not true.

i can't imagine losing you.

not at this moment.

this is too much a blow for me thats

gonna hit me hard thoroughly.

real hard. =(((((

did this personal DNA test after i chanced upon it

from my friend's blog and here's the results:

You are an Experiencer

Your inquisitive nature, imagination, and hands-on practicality make you an EXPERIENCER.

Although you have an active imagination, you also concern yourself with the functional elements of things.

You are willing to experiment to find things that work the most efficiently.

Getting stuck in certain habits is boring to you—you'd rather find new experiences.

Accordingly, experiences are more important to you than objects—you'd rather spend your money and energy on events and adventures than on material things.

You like to contemplate a lot of options before making a decision, and you're willing and able to consider a lot of different angles to problems.

You're open to suggestions, and often rely on others to assess the merit of those suggestions.

You have an ability to see the big picture—not just how things are, but how they could be—in a variety of situations.

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

Have faith that your imagination and practicality will complement each other, and lead to good decisions on your part.

Take the initiative in seeking things out—don't wait for them to come to you.

Your awareness of those around you, along with your nuanced perceptions of the world at large, makes you the GENEROUS person that you are.

You value time to yourself and understand how rich your private world can be—you know that you don't have to go wild to have a good time.

You are excited and energized by ideas and often enjoy things more through observation than through experience.

This tendency gives you an appreciation for different perspectives and opinions about the world.
Being as aware of others as you are doesn't mean you find it easy to trust them immediately—this is something that happens more slowly for you.

Despite this, you are aware of the complexities of many situations and are reluctant to pass judgments on others.

Although you have fewer friendships than some people, those that you have are meaningful and are important to you.

You value spending time alone—it is while reflecting on the world around you that you often learn something new about yourself or begin to understand something that's been bothering you.

what a lousy lousy lousy day. boooo.
i know i shldn't be saying this since it'll bring 4 years of

bad luck to me. but, somehow. my brain ain't gonna listen

to my inner dialogue. so.. haisssss..... =(

nothing seems right in whatever things i do.

why so.. i hate that feeling of being nothing but a hassle..

i hate that to core.. as much as i wish to pull myself through

this aimless journey, there's always setbacks coming in between

that withdraw me back and forcing me to retreat from the world.

im tired. i really am. how much more do i have to endure when

everything comes to no avail.. i hate all those weaknesses of mine.

i do wish to prove to mum that the word fated doesn't exist at all.

but probably i shld reckon it now. probably i shld submit to the life that

im given. no no no.. i shldn't let auto thoughts get into my way. they are

nothing but negative thoughts. i should listen to my inner dialogue instead.

be strong. hang on. all will be fine. hurdles are something that allows us to

.....................................................become stronger. yes. thats the way. i hate that loneliness feeling.

its gonna to be tough through, and alone but fear not.

your guardian star and angel must be somewhere guiding you along..

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others.

It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people deem important.

Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.

Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers.

Alright. thats all for the day. The coming horrendous week is definitely

getting and driving us crazy. What with the EIC, PQM and oh my mother

liquor quizzes.. *faints. how i wish this dreadful week will get over soon. booo..

i need some motivator pills..