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this is bad.

why the sickness now of all times.

with all those assignments thats still on the list,

and quizzes as well. =x

the thought of it just simply leave me with guilt for

any rest i take.

but the sore throat is certainly killing me softly and

last night was the worst night ever what with the tossing

on my bed for more than a whopping of 2 hrs due

to the real blasting painful kill in my throat that make

my sleep of really discomfort..

and the slight cough and flu sure make things worse.

i can sense the dizziness in me every now and then, and

how i throw up the minute i consume anything. =((

oh well, the fever bug seems to be on its way as well.

booooo..

this is gonna be a real lousy weekend for me..

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

days are getting a tad busy recently.. soo..
ok enough. stop using such lousy excuse for not updating.
well, frankly speaking.. i have lost that drive for blogging.
and the lazy bug in me is partly to be blamed as well.
so much to say, but i just can't find the word.
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on another note, its such a coincidence to see wei wei at the same restaurant for
huiting's celebration last evening. speaking of that, its been such a long time since
our last meet up with ting. but i guess, its gonna be frequent nw. and somehow, i
had this sudden miss for the school days we used to have. school was loads of fun
then and how i looked forward to them every single day and to seeing my friends
in school, having fun. thats was my happiest period ever in life where i had almost
everything. but four years went past in a flash and before long, everyone got
separated and new school lives started. and how everything seemed to crumble down
for me.. school was pretty tough for me, but the bunch of classmates i have were
the reason that keep me going. still they are now. those late nights hang outs and
fun. how i miss them. if only things remain the same.. well, looking on the bright
side, everything seems to get better now.. *hopefully
probably you were right, there's no use harping on to certain things thats within your reach sometimes, its just gonna make your
life more miserable.. and true enough, people do change to suit the environment and i ain't have the right to order them to behave the
right way. so,i'll just play my part well then.
NAPFA up next, and it does pose a disadvantage for someone like me who has not
keep up with the habit of exercising ever since school started. and how my muscle
always ached after each training. and badminton last friday was great though i suffered
soreness in almost every part of me. but still, i love it. and i really do miss those pe session
during the school days.. hopefully, there will be another badminton session again or
probably volleyball and etc.
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on a random note, i had this thought of leading a simple life at some countryside. with no
stress and anything to trouble with, since the cycle of attaining the things you want is just
an endless list like what we have learned in PQM, when one level of needs is satisfied, the
desire for another needs will be aroused. and if the desire become too negative, its not
gonna do any good. looking in another point of view, so what if you have achieved the needs
of yours when you ain't happy about it. so, live simple and be happy shall be the best thing
to do now. alright, this is extremely random.
as much as i thought what they had said wldn't befall on me, but it did eventually. and i was right of the outcome that i had anticipated,
i wldn't blame you. go ahead and pursue your own happiness..
The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows when
But I'm strong


im so in love with this song.. =))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

how nice it would be if someone invent a micro chips such that we
can save the hassle of trying to memorise all the stuffs we need to
that is certainly driving everyone crazy. whats the point of having
quizzes and exams for students when they will simply throw
everything back to the lecturers all over again. probably not all, but
generally mm, an outstanding 90% of what we have learned.. perhaps. =x

boo. i simply hate STUDYING!! i really do. and that explains for the
short mugging line found in my right hand. *faints faints.
if only there's someone to motivate me...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

总装着很有把握

不准爱渗入生活

才发现闯了祸

让你当真以为我的心上了锁

让你绝望地走

成全独立的我

好想捂耳朵不想不看不想听谁说

好想蹲在角落

把谴责的眼光都躲过

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像个黑色漩涡

将我吞没

悔恨已逃不脱

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我承认这都是我

感情事处理得不妥

从不说

我爱你

那么多

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原来人可能脆弱

爱让我很难振作

我坐在最前座

人生第一次面对什么叫落寞

经历你这一走

最大傻瓜是我

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我不要谁好心帮我

每个人像在隔岸观火

看我犯错

提醒我说

都是我的错

提醒我说

逼你离开我

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就算同情是条绳索

我也没办法伸出双手

拯救自己(除了你)

除非是你(拯救我)

肯回头(为了我)

扭转这个结果

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its the slight tendency to cry whenever listening to certain songs

and how some songs just describe the way you feel exactly..

and probably, this is the song..

not any more, its all over.. =(

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

叶子在窗外轻轻爷

人行道没有行人走过

镜子里的我很不像我

自从你离开了我变得很软弱

你的影子在每一个角落

好像是在提醒着我

少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞

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我想我可以习惯一个人生活

我想我可以假装不曾爱过

冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我

感觉如果要走谁能说 no

我想我可以习惯一个人生活

在记忆里面擦去你的承诺

爱情怎么会是这个结果

爱情是个梦而我睡过头

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

halfway through, yet fallen
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who would have thought we would one day become like this when silences are no longer comfortable,
but awkward. when priorities would be shifted and the gap between us will only grow, but never mend.
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you know, sometimes people get so used to always be the one thats giving, maintaining,
offering. but one day, the repercussion of it will come rushing to you all at once, and suddenly
it feels sick, tiring, and frustrating to be always standing on this side. and the worst of it all is
that sometimes despite your efforts, you feel so forgotten and disregarded for. and then,
gradually, you decide to just let things pass. and so you just fade off into the background. even
that occasional reminder that you are still around just offers no help. and when that happens,
the distance has by then grown so much that its going to take huge efforts to mend it back. but
then again, maybe nobody has even noticed anything. and thats when the piercing realisation
hits you. you had been terribly wrong about everything. so wrong.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

saturday just highlighted the emptiness when my computer went haywired and

uneasiness took over me for that two consecutive days. yes yes. i do admit i simply

can't live without my computer.!! but my gameboy kept me accompany through the

days, and im all addicted once again to it... =)

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on another note, friday outing with wei wei, auntie luan ting and along with their

juniors, gladys and yueying was so much of a fun. oh yes, we did something that

we last did it like ages ago and that was taking neoprints. it was rather one of the

most amusing neoprints session among all that i had taken. anyhow, i did enjoy myself.

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here's the photos and neoprints we took on that day:

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on a happier tone,

WEI WEI PIGGYBACKED & SENT ME HOME LAST NIGHT!!

thats so sweet of her. thanks wei wei. *big huggies...

and miss toh sent us all the way to the mrt station today. =))

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anyway, here's an interesting way to identify if you are a right or left brainperson:

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1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.

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Look at your hands.

If you see

Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain

Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

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2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)

Right arm above left arm ---> left brain

Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

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Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

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Right-Left:

Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and

respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving

forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others.

Stable personality andconsiderate, give others a being protected feeling. But the

weakness is they cannot say no;regardless how unwilling they are, they will take

care of others.

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Right-Right:

Loves challenges type. Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take

action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without

thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others,

will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective.

However, because of their straight forward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

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Left-Left:

Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or

win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about

doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they arevery trustworthy.However, if

they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very

"anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with

when first met.

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Left-Right:

Likes to take care of others, leader type. Has a cool and keen observationability to see

through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and

calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group.

Popular among people.However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling

because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others

view them, and always on alert.

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and so, im a right-left brainperson!! (i know i misread the interpretation. =x)

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.