halfway through, yet fallen
.
who would have thought we would one day become like this when silences are no longer comfortable,
but awkward. when priorities would be shifted and the gap between us will only grow, but never mend.
.
.
you know, sometimes people get so used to always be the one thats giving, maintaining,
offering. but one day, the repercussion of it will come rushing to you all at once, and suddenly
it feels sick, tiring, and frustrating to be always standing on this side. and the worst of it all is
that sometimes despite your efforts, you feel so forgotten and disregarded for. and then,
gradually, you decide to just let things pass. and so you just fade off into the background. even
that occasional reminder that you are still around just offers no help. and when that happens,
the distance has by then grown so much that its going to take huge efforts to mend it back. but
then again, maybe nobody has even noticed anything. and thats when the piercing realisation
hits you. you had been terribly wrong about everything. so wrong.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.