this is real, this is me.

i don't know why.
but the emo cells in me seems to be acting up and somehow,
it just highlight the emptiness in me.
wasn't me ready for this.?
i thought i was.
but a part of me doesn't appear so.
tear down all your defense, and all that's left is a vulnerability so stark.
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im so stumbled up right now.
why. why do i have this unpleasant presage regarding your departure.
what if that dream of mine came true.
i cldn't imagine how it wld be to see my world threatening to crash.
no. not so. its just a dream.
you be alright.
you be safe...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:15 AM

Monday:
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its just the botheration of how we'd have to head down to school to continue
our fyp despite the holidays and there's still a long long way ahead before the
completion of it. lets look on the positive side where the aftermath of the fyp
would be yet again another holiday. thumbs up.
ever thought that something could get you all perplex so much that you are
only aware when the realization of how it got you all euphoric at the sight of it.
and so much so, i'd have this envisage of having you revolving in my life. you
simply make my days happy.
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Tuesday:
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how i thought wei wei and me only have each other prior to the start of work,
but somehow, it didn't turn out so. in fact, the people we met there, were pretty
interesting and how they were so into the freebies available. hehs. we did get
some freebies as well. tralala~ boredom didn't really exist with them around
and everything was much or less alright except that the sales was rather
degrading. i shall not go further into it and i'll prove to evan that i'll not be the
highlight of the day anymore. aja aja aja aja!
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some days, i just sat in a corner contemplating over your actions
and how you got me into a state of confusion once again.
ahead or a turn at the next stop?
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*soon to be, you will leaving for china for such a dreaful period of almost half a years' time.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:03 AM

as according to wei wei, its time for some updates before my blog continues

collecting dust, cobweb and be it anything else.

so here, let's start right from the day of liberation way back to last wednesday:

plan to zouk was recinded or rather adjourned to someday later in a few weeks

time. we had a kbox session instead and its rather surprising of me to hold on to

the mike for most of the time. this is strange, but i do have this intense craze or

fever in me for another kbox session. *hint hint. =)

the world is small as usual and we caught sight of liza and yoshi during the

queue for donuts. it wasn't something pleasant to have liza swaying her camera

about to take down the unsightly scene of us gobbling down the donuts in our

hand. yes, as much as we declared her offer for a picture or tried ways and

means to shun away from her camera, it just goes to show undoubtedly that we

didn't succed.

and then after, to wei wei's house ever since my last visit in almost 2 years'

time ago. well, for once, i joined the auntie and uncle's section at the side

bench seat of the park while wei wei had her run and there i was dissipating

my time away reading the newspaper and doing sudoku. chicken wings were

pretty nice. *hint, yet again. =)

Thursday:

no outdoor activities seem interesting though so i made reservation of my

time for lover in paris instead. short as it is, but it was great. aja yea! ok. i

know there's no link here. -_-ll

Friday:

just as the saying goes, the night is young.

so, dxo with sijia's friends and the further linked connection friends was

simply... fun. =)

*pictures to be uploaded soon.

Saturday & sunday:

nothing pretty interesting, just the usual hangout and yea. thats all.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:01 PM

im so in the verge of devastation.
distraught.
dumbfounded.
why. why this.
didn't i make sacrifices for it.
must you be that cruel to me.
i didn't blame you for taking my dreams away,
my happiness,
my luck,
and almost everything.
but why that slightest bit of hope im left with?
and why me?
isn't my life wretched enough?
i didn't ask for much,
just that bit of happiness.
is that too much to ask for.
and stop tangling me into situations that im not up to.
its all because of you:
my days are so much miserable.

my dreams are diminished.
i've disappointed countless of people.
i've lost hope in myself.
i've to give up almost everything.
i no longer know what my life shld revolve with.
i've given up my happiness.
i've to lead an aimless pathway.
luck never seem to be on my side.
im thoroughly exhausted.

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yes. its all because of you.
so much of a thanks.
what more do you expect?
can you tell me what i shld do instead.
stop making my days like a fool.
i simply abhor that.
i hate you.
and i hate myself even more.
as much as i don't wish to submit to you,
your overwhelming control beats me thoroughly.
you've succeeded depleteing all my energy away.
you win, i lose.
i'll surrender.
just as you wish....

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:49 PM

in just another three more days to go before the first paper is down for the whole
examination. and fancy me doing something so unproductive right now instead of
using my time wisely studying like the others. and way before the end of the exam,
i have already made plans for my holidays. =)
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list of things to do after exam:
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* refurbish my room
* make a trip down to ikea
* a new blogskin for my blog
* shopping
* work
* happy hours
* sea side walk
* some dvd/vcd/youtube/crunchyroll session
* zoo
* and the list goes on...

ok. the best part of everything is, i have yet to touch on process engineering A. -_-ll
how nice this is. probably i should start my mugging session right now. alright. wish
me luck for the upcoming exams. =)
to the rest: good luck for the exams.! liberation is simply 11 days away. we shall have
lots of fun then. im so awaiting for that day. =))

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

2:48 PM

yes, after our official bid goodbye to PQM module on monday, together with

wei wei, we headed down for her ah lun's movie, secret. who would have

thought of that unexpected twist in the movie and whats more prodigious is

the way they strike their fingers on the piano. its truly amazing. and just

somehow, i always have this extra admiration to people who plays piano

because they simply give off this graceful stylishness in them. oh well,

still it depends, not everyone appears so.
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anyhow, the long walk down from clarke quay to somerset was a pretty

good one. enjoying the late night sceneries and how those nostalgia

memories flashed back on my mind. theweather was windy and

a tad of gloominess then, so i thought of you. the things we did,

the songs i used to hear and i guess i miss you..

if the moments were more than just an ultimate bungy ride...
i wld gladly take this ride all over again even if the promise isnt valid anymore.
Wish upon a star,
Kiss upon a cloud.
Dance upon a dream,
Once upon a time.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:20 PM

so the meetup last saturday was so much fun. dinner at crab shack,
with the follow ups icekimo for dessert and sweet talks at jy's hse.
nights like these are only as happy as the night can last. =)

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pictures:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:45 PM

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its best friend birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JY!! =))
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on a happier note, NAPFA test is like finally over!
wheee..
and thanks wei wei, for guarding right behind me all along for the run.
because its certainly not something pleasant to run on an empty stomach
and i guess, i'll probably just give up halfway through if she wasn't there
to encourage me for the last 2 laps.
oh yes, so ting was then the real pig in toger's clothing.
hahahas.
i know PQM quiz is coming soon and i ought to spend my time wisely studying
rather than coming up with this friend test. but well, everyone needs a break
too. so have fun guys.!
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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:54 PM