im so in the verge of devastation.
distraught.
dumbfounded.
why. why this.
didn't i make sacrifices for it.
must you be that cruel to me.
i didn't blame you for taking my dreams away,
my happiness,
my luck,
and almost everything.
but why that slightest bit of hope im left with?
and why me?
isn't my life wretched enough?
i didn't ask for much,
just that bit of happiness.
is that too much to ask for.
and stop tangling me into situations that im not up to.
its all because of you:
my days are so much miserable.

my dreams are diminished.
i've disappointed countless of people.
i've lost hope in myself.
i've to give up almost everything.
i no longer know what my life shld revolve with.
i've given up my happiness.
i've to lead an aimless pathway.
luck never seem to be on my side.
im thoroughly exhausted.

.
yes. its all because of you.
so much of a thanks.
what more do you expect?
can you tell me what i shld do instead.
stop making my days like a fool.
i simply abhor that.
i hate you.
and i hate myself even more.
as much as i don't wish to submit to you,
your overwhelming control beats me thoroughly.
you've succeeded depleteing all my energy away.
you win, i lose.
i'll surrender.
just as you wish....