I could still remember vividly those young days of us seated round that huge
dinning table where we snatched food with each other, played payroll game,
poker cards along with the casual chit-chat thereafter and rooted in front of
the tv for the don't worry be happy show every weekend with the cousins.
Those were the days that have long become a past. Its irony how we have
actually turn into the most familiar strangers as we grow. I'd envy very much
some of my friends who are still able to maintain on good terms with their
dearest cousins. I simply don't understand why we are always swirled into the
domestic affair as well together with the adults. It always hurts whenever they
quarrel and how much hurtful words and the ugly sides of them are exposed in
the midst of their fight. All that it takes to trigger the sparks in them for an
argument never fail to be the same matter, money. Does money really value as
much as the kinship that took years to build up. You frown your eyebrow when
you are in a depserate state for money and so are you when you have way too
much money that is enough to live you off for your next younger generation. So is
it really worth the dispute for it? Its obvious the answer to them is no and they
can really be mean to the core. I hate the third uncle in particular. that snobbish
look on your face is just so sickening that i wanted very much to blast your head
off with just a shot if i have a pistol. Just so what if you are the richest among all.
You owe what you have today because of your parents and your ungrateful acts
to your parents totally disgust me. To think that whats on your mind are actually
means and ways to get hold of their possessions. You are always the one who stir
up the row and you caused grandma's death. I'll never ease off that aversion for
you in me and you don't earn any respect from me. Not at all. Money is no doubt
the root of all evil and it harms relationships to the extreme. Really.


i needed you tonight badly
to hold me through this..
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I totally heart smitten magazine to the max. Every flip through the pages bring
you upon the trendiest and uber stylish fashion along with the styling tips that
inspire readers to imagine each item fitting into their lives. They do highlight the
choicest fashion, beauty and decor items, the latest stores, best emerging
designers and exotic destination shopping spots. The layout design of the
content is the best part of the magazine and it's the reason why i'm completely
in love with it. I'd agree to a large extent with their slogan as well, shopping is life!

Anyhow, i got accepted into ntu and smu, and they're giving me approximately
a month's time to decide if i want to take up the offer, and i've never felt so lost
so torn apart and so indecisive. This is the part where i say i hate to grow up
because decision making is supposed to be an adult's thing, but it really isn't my
forte.


I remember feeling this way back then,
this suffocating hurt in the still night,
but i'd tell myself that i'll try to sleep it all away.
those words that i've wanted to tell you all along,
sorry, i love you.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.