the past week has been nothing short of tiring. the tight schedule in school

plus the upcoming reports, datasheets, homework and final year project

to accomplish. boo. im still in the holiday mood. not ready for school yet. =(

i miss the times spent in aussie, no worries, lots of freedom, those splendid

moments of fun with them and all to myself. needless to care for much things.

but its over. thats alright. i'll move on. and look on the brighter side, probably

this will be good, too busy and tired for anything else and much less to say,

stop my wild thinking......

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

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......................................................This life,
......................................................................when surveyed with a broad glance,
.......................................................................................................................................presents little more than

...........................a vast spectacle of loss.

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* i just want a break with that bit of freedom. that will do.

so could you stop your probing session. i cld hardly breathe now.

all that im asking is just some emancipation from you. thats all. =(

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

school was alright so far and super thanks to the kind teacher who
permitted the change of our gems schedule from friday to wednesday,
leaving us the liberty from school on alternate friday. whippee.

had indo chicken at ps on friday together with my ITP mates, before
i made my way down to the pub. brandy with ginger ale tasted much
more better than the one i tried on plane and im so in love with it. thumbs
up, brandy shall be my all time favourite drink now!

the day before was well spent with jy shopping around at orchard despite the
fact that i didnt buy anything. nvm. there's more coming up for the mid-year
sale! on another note, we went to this funfair outside taka and had our manicure
done for free, along with the ice cream and prawn crackers. aside that, jy and i

came up with the to-do-list in the latter:

then after, we met up with yw and wk for dinner at thomoson before heading to

island creamery for ice cream.. the ice cream tasted special, i like it.. =)) i'll be

looking forward to the next outing soon.!

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

This is starting to feel vaguely like how it was, being eighteen.

I wish it won't go away.
somehow, im apprehensive of the swift growth right now.

all of a sudden, i had this mentality that we are growing way too fast.

in another year to come, we will graduate and move on in different paths.

a new start and an end to polytechnic life. how chornicle it is.

is there anything where we need not have to say goodbye and hello to the

new things pending in the latter. its does hurts to part whenever one just get

used to the surrounding. probably everything in life does comes to an end.

if only, if only we don't have to...

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on a dire note, i've no idea whats my future ahead.

we'll soon be out in the 'real' world and hows life going to be?

the trepidation in me has been showing sign of on the rise with each passing day.
on another note, its heartrending in knowing that dr darryl has to undergo an

operation. it does puzzle me at certain times of the fact that why people of

good natured are always the one to leave first. well, certainly the situation for

dr darryl isn't that bad afterall and he will get well soon after the operation.

speedy recovery!

p.s: he's really a compassionate and committed supervisor that im really thankful

of for his patience and guidance along the way.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

13 of april, friday the 13 as well, marked the last day in melbourne, the end of the

whole trip and almost a bad day for all of us with fear that our luggages would exceed

way too much from the maximum weight and we had to pay tax. im so thankful

that i managed to escape the 'extra payment' but a 28kg weight for my luaggage

certainly did keep me in apprehension priory. this is the worst experience i ever

had for a flight back. thats not all, having to carry 3 hand carriers, including my

laptop bag was indubitably an arduous task with a weight load of near to 20kg in

total. probably i should learn from chee wee by saying im young and fit huh.

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the past 6 weeks have been the most reminisce moments in my life. i miss

everything there. *misses. somehow im feeling so emo, the restless in me and

the lack of something which i couldn't find any words to describe.

*so much to say but i just can't the word.

probably im suffering from post-australia depression as well.

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i'll learn to be strong...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Friday:

Saturday & sunday:

went scienceworks (a similar science centre look alike) today and did this mini NAPFA test. interesting

though and i just realized the lack of excerise in me. i should bear in mind of doing excerise when im back

and to burn off the excess weight gained as well.

ps: have fun reading out the ink colour of the word instead of the word in the pics shown below.

went williamstown then and had our lunch before heading to boxhill for dinner. its surprising that i

managed to finish a medium size pizza on my own. i'd love the pizza here. simply so in love with it. i'll definitely miss the traditional pizza (Al Porto Vecchio). *misses. walked along the aisle of the sea side with

lots of yachts and came across two real à la mode cars. cool!

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Monday:

a sumptuous breakfast treat plus hot choclate for myself on ester day together with the rest. its marvellous

to enjoy the most important meal for the day in such a sophisticated and refined restaurant. great ambience and fantastic foods. yum yum. pay a visit to the museum of the Great Walls of China then after as well as severals other galleries in the museum. party at home for the night. had lots of foods, snacks and drinks. the preparation of fries was almost a disaster with the pot caught in fire for a few moments. the kitchen was so

oily. yucks. but still everything went well after all.

*photos to be uploaded soon.

wouldn't it be perfect if good times do last forever...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

counting down to the day of return: 6 days

a hodgepodge of mixed feelings
it seems rather unbearable to leave here in just another 6 days.
im missing everything over here.
the places, the sceneries, the people and definitely the fun!
and of course not forgetting the shopping sessions..

its good friday today and right after the weekends,
its easter day so we do get to enjoy another two days
of holidays, having the benefits of five consecutive
breaks. on a sad note, shops are closed on good friday
as well as on easter days so the holidays seem rather
redundant. regardless of that, we'll make use of the
holidays to the fullest and do our last minute shopping.
thats all for the moment, i'd have to think of a way to
shrink my luggage. *scratch head.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

this weekend trip was a special one what with the excursion planned by professor philip
and along with his four reasearch students namely marc from france, tim from vietnam
who is a local aussie now, nok from thailand and onar from mexico. the ambience was
really distinctive in the way that its like an oversea trip and a mini tour on top of it. can

you imagine that feeling.? it took us almost a two hours ride to philip island where we set
off on friday evening after a field trip in the afternoon with prof jeff and his students. right

after that, we bought our dinner on the way there and arrived at this apartment which
professor philip rented for us. we turned in soon after the dinner and some cards game.
.

we set off to the ocean side way before dawn but even so, we didn't manage to catch the

sunrise. it could be the countless number of clouds that hid the sun from surfacing. so

with disappointment, we headed back. a little while after breakfast, we made our trip to

this cliff where we walked through the cliff once again to the highest peak. again, the

sceneries are picturesque but the scenceries at Great Ocean were more preferred. on a

frightening note, i almost lost my way back together with a few others and landed in some
ulu and desolated pathway with the soft sand that almost trapped our feets. for a few
moments of instant, i thought we were bound to be left behind in that deserted cliff and
probably not made our way out till someone found us and lead us out. scary though but
thank godness, we saw the rest right below the cliff and so we slithered at our risk down
the cliff to catch up with the rest. eased at last.
.

we moved on to the nobbies after lunch to check out the timing for the penguin
parade and then after we bought stuffs for the BBQ for the night. in an hour time
of preparation for the BBQ, we hit the road to penguin parade once again. i was
kind of thwarted of the penguin parade where i thought we could come in in close
proximity to the penguin but instead, we could only watch them from far. its alright
then as i got to view them in close proximity at the platform for a couple of penguins.
so right after that, we departed back home for our BBQ. i was rather shattered by
then and pardoned me for the low vibes which i had no idea either or probably its
the same thing that affects me again whenever i thought of it. =x and so, i missed the
fun they had for that night and slouched in the bed instead. thinking of something else.

had a relatively long sleep then and packed our stuff later on after breakfast before
we left the place. towards the way back home, we went to churchill island for a short
stopover. its a historic island farm, with the same moo moos and meh mehs that we
got to see them along the way of the roadside. sometimes i'd imagine that i was in new
zealand instead of australia. Numerous number of cows, sheeps and lambs with the
blending background of the hills, mountains, vast oceans and large fields do seems alike.


wish you were here.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

Hello people, my name is yingxuan. you can call me xing yuan if you want to. =) i love my family and friends. Chocolates are my fav esp nama chocs from royce and kinder bueno! I love kids in particular to a 5 year old one who is simply so adorable and i heart him to the max! thats all about it. thank you.